Weight loss journey....

I went to work out this morning kicking and screaming.  I mean REALLY kicking and screaming!! I hate working out and lately it has been like pulling teeth.  I gained a pound from all the stress eating and every inch of my body hurts so really what's the point? I mean it's like they say it's a "Lifestyle"  Not like living in the fast lane, high rolling kinda lifestyle but a HUGE change in the mind.  At this point in time in my life I don't think that a mental change is gonna happen.  Stress is a killer and you have to be in the right mind set to say, "Humm I won't have that queso, guacamole, chips, and margarita! Instead I will have hummus and 1 glass of red wine."  Who can do that when they have a teenager that is driving them to drink, a retail business in the middle of an economic recession, and two small kiddos that are all over the place!  I mean I just don't have the will power, determination, strength, I mean the list can go on for days.  All I can say is that in less than 10 days I will be laid out on the beach next to my bestest girlfriends drinking ...... you got it.... MARGARITAS EATING LOTS OF GUACAMOLE AND QUESO. 

And as if my day working out in pain, working all day with a huge zit on my face and NO makeup on wasn't bad enough.... MY TEENAGER JUST BROKE MY Freaking CELL PHONE!!!! Just serve me up the drinks NOW before I crack!!!

End of day.

Hopefully better tomorrow.